Today wasn't so great. I came down with a common cold, my back ached so much that I can barely walk. I took a nap for about 3 hours, waking up feeling dizzy. I found myself trapped in my own thoughts and regrets for having ruined my health 2 days ago. I didn't get the consequences the day after (18 Jan) but today. Doing anything makes me feel uncomfortable. I tried to lay down on the bed and rest, but my back ached. I tried to take a shower and almost passed out in the toilet. I tried to sit calmly, but my back ached even more. My mind was full of negative thoughts, I blamed myself for having done all the stupid things which got me ended up like this, I wanted to isolate myself from the world. I kept on feeling that way until I decided to listen to "Om mani padme hum" . I didn't expect myself to do that, but somehow I did at last. I closed my eyes and let my soul flow as I slowly breathe, drifting into the world of the calm. About 5 mi...